My drive to understand the purpose and meaning in life is quite related to the need to be someone of significance. Sometimes its hard to distinguish this from a common fantasy of being “famous”. Do I just want to be known? Does it matter if you are known before you die or is existence in the collective consciousness a shot at immortality? Should I be known just for anything, or something…well…significant. Digging deeper into this idea of significance, I tried to simplify it down to two core elements, impact and reach.
How much have your actions and ideas influence, changed and become an essential part of someone else’s existence?
How many individuals are aware of your existence and what you represent? Is your circle a tight-knit group of family and friends or does it encircle the globe? Or maybe its just you, your own lonely self.
Represented on a chart, it would look something like this.
I think the worst place to be, is where I am right now, where the only person significantly affected by me, is really just me. Most people live life moving up the graph, on the impact scale, but probably chase a life of moving right towards a global reach.
I know I don’t want to just be another Mr. T; while I desire a global reach, I wouldn’t be satisfied for a trivial role in pop culture, and being awarded an entry into Wikipedia. Being Jesus is not really looking in the cards and I have this self-defeating attitude towards being someone like Claire Huxtable as well.
But staying where I am just isn’t an option.
This isn’t binary of-course. Moving towards that blank space in the center would probably work best. As a life goal, that may be worthwhile.